As if would time stop, oh no time is ok it is only me who perceive of it
slows. It all feels now brighter and cleaner.
So I sit here in Sun lighten kitchen and enjoying from its sharp shine. In
my mind though is hanging "Why so late, why now?" Yes! why only now when
fever flood my body and driving my head. Why only now I sense life as I
would only be born little while ago.
The feeling walking out of the tunnel, exactly the feeling as one would
walk out from gray monotonic flatness and come to colorful world. I had
exactly same feeling quite few years ago, when I walked out from military
base to the town. And after all the green and gray I saw colorful girl\'s
skirt. As if would my life in last years was only empty walk in monotonic
hunt for food and satisfying raw needs.
It feels like all is only question of point of view. I recognize it only
now when I have possibility to see it from distance of time, when time flow
is more important than what I will be eating tomorrow.
I feel great in this by sun brightened kitchen. I would sit here maybe
forever. I am only afraid that same think could happen and this kitchen
would change its nice warm and bright feel to the gray tunnel without a
single spark.
And that is exactly why I write these lines, so I would not forget, so I
would later, sitting in the tunnel, remember that all is only question of
point of view and all can be changed. It is only necessary to be able to
look from different angle and not always it has to be fever which will
force us to observer white bright walls, where shadows are moving slowly
while our brain is thinking where we were yesterday and why.
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Translated from original text in Slovak language published here
